Living with Chronic Fatigue Syndrome – a survival strategy

I had always been a hard worker. When Chronic Fatigue Syndrome (CFS) first struck me I was doing a demanding full time job and trying to set up my own company in my spare time. I suppose it was the stress of this that made me so ill. At the time I thought I had meningitis. I thought I was going to die.

After a few weeks of not dying, I realised that life wasn’t going to end. But it wouldn’t ever be the same again.

At that stage it was too early to know that I had CFS (sometimes called ME – myalgic encephalomyelitis – or post-viral syndrome). That only became apparent when I suffered exactly the same symptoms again a year or so later. But I already knew that I couldn’t go back to how I was before the illness. Something had to give. I quit my job and somehow succeeded in getting my fledgling company off the ground.

That was 15 years ago. Since then, CFS and I have never been far apart. Mostly it stays in the background, but every few years it launches a full frontal assault on my immune system, leaving me unable to work for weeks or months at a time.


These days I’m better at managing it. I recognise the signs that it’s about to return, and I stop whatever I’m doing and lie down. I’m better at setting my goals lower, avoiding stress, doing less work. I’ve learned how to live my life in slow motion.

I wonder sometimes if I could ever hold down a “proper” job again. What kind of boss would tolerate me slinking off for forty winks after lunch, then leaving work in the middle of the afternoon to potter in the garden or do some yoga? How many companies would put up with an employee who took two months off sick every few years?

I no longer kid myself that I’ll ever be cured of CFS. I know two friends who’ve had it for longer than me, and they still have to “manage” the illness, just like me. But it’s not all doom and gloom by any means. Although both of my friends had to drop out of university because of CFS, one went on to complete a PhD and the other finished his studies to become a Catholic priest, so they haven’t let it hold them back, and neither have I.

Most people don’t know that there’s anything wrong with me. I don’t look ill, and I don’t act ill, most of the time. Sometimes my wife has to tell people, “Steve’s not well.” The next day or week they’ll ask her if I’m better, but she knows, and I know, that I’ll never be truly well again.


If you have CFS, my advice would be to not fight it. Instead learn to live with it. Recognise when you need to slow down or stop. After 15 years of living with CFS, I know what tends to bring on an attack (for me at least) – stress, overwork, very cold weather – and I try to avoid these.

I also know what helps – music, rest, a calm environment, early nights, gentle exercise, yoga. When I’m feeling strong I exercise hard, but I sense that I’m pushing myself close to the edge if I run or cycle too far. Life has become a balancing act.

Perhaps most importantly I’ve learned how to reduce stress. Allow plenty of time to get things done. Don’t impose arbitrary deadlines. Permit failure. Try again another day. Don’t multitask. Eat a relatively high fat diet. Take regular exercise when possible. And never watch or listen to the news, and never read the comments sections in blogs.

Having the illness has lowered my expectations, but it’s also enhanced my life-work balance. And I’ve still managed to create a successful business from scratch, and have no plans to rest on my laurels. Not everyone who suffers from the illness manages to pick themselves up, but for many it is possible to live a nearly normal life.

168 responses to “Living with Chronic Fatigue Syndrome – a survival strategy

  1. Hi Steve, my son was recently diagnosed and his condition seems to be deteriorating quickly. Your blog was very helpful. Do you have other blog posts on this topic. I would like to read them myself as well as have my son read them.

  2. Hi Steve
    Sorry to learn about your illness. It’s good therapy to be able to write about your life, interests and the dreadful “yuppie flu” illness termed and best known by sufferers as “Chronic Fatigue Syndrome,” that so many it inflicts
    upon. I’ve found though good friends and a strong bull pen, to be a good reliever from the pain, I’m one of those still searching for answers to many of lives troubles, and trying to break free from the many experiences that have kept me caged. Keep the thoughts flowing!

  3. Happy New year 2020
    Sir how are you sir
    Same or some down spiral I am eager to know.

    • You can still doing your business or run or biking as previously

    • Hi, Happy New Decade!
      I am the same as ever. I exercise most days, but I sleep most days too. How are you?

      • I am much worse I still doing full time
        Job but this winter relapse weeken my nerve system most I feel very week I can’t sit properly . Last October I went full tour of Delhi visit since then I am not okay. I think I have to leave my job now otherwise it too late . Yesterday I walk 2 km and biking around 60 km since then I am bedbound.

      • How much is safe I can’t judge I think my muscles of back and abdomen torn due to excessive exercise I follow your protocol. My question is that do you have nerve pain and weakness.i am big fan of your blog I read them regularly and love your wisdom

        • Thank you. I have never had nerve weakness or some of the other symptoms you describe. I have learned always to moderate my work and exercise to avoid falling ill.

        • Subhash ramola

          Sir I am completely bedridden since 13 Jan ,2020 can’t even go to toilet my wife manage my toilet and other think
          I think I leave this state forever as Whitney Dafoe was leave from past 7 years any suggestions medicine please help me out my left side get paralyzed completely .

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