I was getting ready for my yoga class this morning, when I realized: I can’t do it. I’m just too tired.
Everyone gets tired, but chronic fatigue (CFS/ME) is different. Because normal people rest and then they’re not tired any more. People with CFS can rest and they still feel tired. Before I got CFS I simply didn’t understand this. I know you won’t either.
Imagine if you were too scared to do exercise, because you knew that every bit of energy you used up exercising would simply be gone. It wouldn’t come back for a long time – days, weeks, months. Perhaps it might never come back. That’s how chronic fatigue feels.
I wish there was a cure, but there doesn’t seem to be one. Instead I live my life constantly aware of how much energy I have and whether it’s enough to get me through the day. Most days it is. Today it wasn’t.
I didn’t want to tell you about this. I don’t want to become a chronic fatigue blogger. I have so many other things I want to say. But today, it just isn’t happening.